So i thought i had posted the past two days, i wrote stuff down, where it is, couldn't tell you... I'm a blogging virgin...give me a break lol. So i guess I'll recap the past two nights since i can't recall the other night.
Basically two nights ago, i was laying in my bed, and when I'm tired and trying to sleep ( i have insomnia ) i scratch my head. I know it's odd but it's just a habit. So i had my hand right above my right ear and i felt something. Now i actually knew it was there since i found it years ago. It's a little raised thing that when i touch it, i can move it. Like there's something under my skin that isn't attached right. Now since I've had it for years and it hasn't grown i should say "eh whatever" but you know, it's me so i can't.
I was convinced it was a tumor when i found it before, and I'm convinced it is again. Two nights ago it just freaked me out but last night i was running through scenarios in my head where i was being told i had a very short time left to live. And it wouldn't go away. I mean i SAW myself saying goodbye to people. It's a horrid feeling let me tell you. I honestly can't write much more since I'm freaking myself out more. I'm going to post a little later about my social anxiety since i haven't touched on it yet. Until then, stay sane.
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